How does one hold their own self back? simple, you overthink, you over-analyze and you doubt yourself. You doubt it so hard that it starts to listen to you, and I for one, am a victim of my own self.
It started a long while ago, but the effects of it wasn’t that apparent. It wasn’t until I started working that I have realized what my own mind is doing to me.
When I was in college, I doubted my capabilities, and never thought that I was smart enough to do better. Always considered myself, as a regular. A regular student, and a regular person. And that caused me to fail behind, big time.
Now that I graduated and working, the doubts are more, even if I get praised for work, I still consider my work as ‘not enough’. And that is causing me to breakdown every once in a while. I overthink every detail, and now it’s not only affecting my work, but also my relationships with the ones I love dearly.
It is all in my head, I now know that quite well, the trick though, is not only to recognize this, but to fight it!
Fight the thoughts in your head that tell you ‘you’re incapable’, fight them with all your might and find the strength to think positively and highly about yourself.
One thing I also started doing, and is helping me a lot, is keeping an agenda with me everyday, documenting all the things that I have done; thus keeping track of my performance.
I remind myself everyday that I’m smarter than I think, and I am doing better than I believe.
Overthinking isn’t only holding you back, but it is also causing a mental toll that you are too young to bear. Learning to refute it is the key, also having someone supportive to remind you what a good person you are, is important.
It is that kind of support and encouragement that got me through senior year, and is helping me excel at work despite my dark thoughts.
I pray everyday for my mind to go easy on me, and I certainly wish the same for all the troubles minds out-there…